‘It’s all a ploy to leave you struggling, penniless and prone…’

Greetings —-,

I sincerely apologize for the tardiness of my response to your letter. I’ve been in sort of a “funk” here lately. It comes with the territory. This place can make you lose who you are if you allow it. I sometimes stay inside of my head too much wondering, ‘Why me? What if, what could/should I have done to avoid this…Thoughts of my daughters and family matters can be overwhelming at times and I go into this sort of “funk.”

I’m doing what’s required of me, in order that I’ll be able to submit my request transfer request whenever the time arises. I don’t want any infractions or disciplinary problems to hinder that. So, I’m pretty much what you’d call “a model prisoner.” Continue reading

Drown in my emotions, so I seem to push them aside

My name is J. B. I’m sixteen years old, and a hispanic male. I been in durham county facility for little over a month. Also I feel that there’s to meet the eyes about what goes on here. Fed that letters dont make it home and every by standard is being played, just cause the government officials have a little more power and they take advantage of it. I also feel that everyone works against the inmates, but supposedly they’re supposed to help. M and R told me to write a letter regarding how I feel instead I wrote some poetry, cause that’s what I do best, thank you or listening. Sincerely, JB (Amazing Poem Below)

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I feel that my childhood been a blur, I have seem to grow up a little too fast. Seen my father be tooken back to his native land Look at my mother struggle on her future plan I been where a kid skips childhood in order to be a man Heard officers take teenage lives just for a promotion I had thought I was in paradise, but I was scared of the ocean   Know how to swim but I afraid I’m drown Drown in my emotions so I seem to push them aside None of my friend/family talk n our problem’s behalfs Just wave the pain with grams and halfs I learned on the corner that you make the money and don’t let it make you never wanted a 9 to 5 I’m just another Hispanic male with ink on my body and scars on my soul with a orange jumpsuit on, I feel like I was parachuting into failure, cause to them I’m just a number BII9864, felony charge for kicking doors could I at least see the inside of the court

We go marching for yesterday, tomorrow, and today

for Jesus Chuy Huerta, Derek D. Walker, Tracy D. Bost, Jose A. Ocampo, and so many others lost.

“The police are the absolute enemy.” –Charles Baudelaire

“The emancipation of the working class must be the work of the class itself.” –Karl Marx

“Fuck the police, let’s hold court in the street.”–many

Since last we were in large numbers on the sidewalks and streets of Durham, much has been said and written about the marches of Nov. 22 and Dec. 19. Now, on January 19th, two months after Jesus “Chuy” Huerta died in the custody of the Durham Police Department, there has been a vigil called to commemorate Chuy’s life. There also is a march prior to the vigil, in order to be visible in our grief, anger, and collective power. We urge those who have not been to previous marches, and who maybe have been quick to criticize the nature of previous marches or who have just been late in recognizing the significance of these demonstrations, to come and demonstrate true solidarity. Continue reading

Questions with no answers

Thanks for the books…I really appreciate it.

They have me on a probation violation. I was homeless. Just got a job working. How can I pay rent and probation on only $130. A week. Most rent costs $125 or more, and probation is $40 a month. How can I buy food, pay rent and probation on that? If I had an address I wouldn’t be in here now. They are trying to give me 17-30 months. Even after that where will I go when I get out? They won’t even try to reinstate my probation. If they could I know I can find a place to go. CJRC is what caused this whole mess. It is making me depressed.

In struggle,

D.H.

This New Year’s Eve, show prisoners your love and rage!

A ban on pencils in cells. A one-hour decrease in rec time, unexplained. C.O Brutality covered up. An inmate death barely mentioned. Arbitrary rules on visitor IDs. And all of this on top of the usual: innutritious food, exorbitant phone and commissary prices, medical inattention and long detentions without court appearances.

But many prisoners at the Durham jail haven’t been taking this repression sitting down, and in fact have come together in the past year to protest these conditions through various means, including petitions, slow downs, and by writing about their experiences (check out: amplifyvoices.com). Please come to show your support and solidarity with them and all prisoners and your commitment to doing what you can to tear down the walls in 2014. Continue reading

‘Fear is a greater hindrance than any one factor at our current point’

The following is from a comrade in a state prison who knows about IOA’s efforts from prisoners who used to be in the Durham jail.

Dear —-,

It was great to receive your response to my previous letter! Your concern and willingness to help a brother in such an incapacitated state goes a looooong way. My sincerest gratitude is extended. I pray that Peace and Blessings are bountiful in your life, as well as the entire I-O-A family. As for me, I am remaining studious at all times and awaiting my appeal hearing… Continue reading

Survey: “The Justice System has its claws sunk deep”

These surveys do not reflect a unified point of view, nor do we in Inside-Outside Alliance necessarily agree with all perspectives that are represented. Despite a few answers which display a white ‘blindspot’–or complete ignorance of the role racial oppression has played and continues to play in U.S. society (and, in this case, Durham)–this inmate’s responses deserve a wide audience.

How long have you been inside? Been locked up for 82 days of a 90 day CRV. I have a hold for a (another county) misdemeanor paraphernalia, I should get time served on that whenever I get there. Continue reading

Surveys: “Black people and hard times…for the last 200 years or so.”

How long have you been inside? 20 months

How many court appearances have you had? 0

How many times have you talked to your lawyer? 3 or 4 times

What is the situation regarding your charge? (Awaiting sentencing, awaiting trial, awaiting appearance, etc.?) DA not satisfied with SBI lab results.

Have you been ever been ‘disciplined’ in your time at DCDC, either individually or as part of a group? Tell about it. No

What in your opinion are the biggest problems with the DCDC? The C.O.s not doing their jobs. Continue reading

Surveys: ‘Jail is a place I don’t like so I have no good experiences’

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How long have you been inside? Since July

How many court appearances have you had? Just first appearance

How many times have you talked to your lawyer? Once

What is the situation regarding your charge? (Awaiting sentencing, awaiting trial, awaiting appearance, etc.?) Awaiting appearance Continue reading

In the land of the free

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What’s good with you? Yeah I’m sorry about the last letter, I just want and need these young guys to get it and want them to get it so bad without going through the things that these rich people that own prisons and jails have in store for them. It’s amazing that we are the only country in the world that has more people locked up than anywhere else, but this is the land of the free. Continue reading