‘We’ve been taught to love a song that blatantly disrespects us’


What’s happening? I’m glad you reached out to me. I do have a few comments concerning a few different topics. First I want to shout out the new food company ABL. They holding it down with the new food changes they’re regulating with. After eating Aramark for 3.5 years and now eating ABL’s I truly understand that Aramark are a bunch of damn crooks. Words can’t explain how much of a shame and absurd it is how they’ve got over for all these years on what they served to us as “food.”

Next shout out to Danielle Mace. What you told me they did to you was unacceptable and I hope you push with legal action till you receive the proper acknowledgment you deserve to expose these bastards. Nothing but love shorty. Next I want to acknowledge a recent incident that took place last week. Officer Faulkner kicked us off the recreation yard after 30 minutes of basketball. (as also described in this post) Continue reading

‘We are so hard that we are afraid of change’

That’s what held us down for a long time back in the day. Even when times was hard, there was honor among thrifts. If I sold sandwiches, the next man would sell soda. We all find a way to help each other keep living. There was nobody robbing each other. Because the game was so real you kept extra to give away. That’s why it was all love back in the day. Continue reading

‘I pray that all my brothers make it through’

Unity—One body—More Power

We are all convicts at the end of the day. I don’t bang nothing. But we killing each other on the outside. And it’s no better on the inside. Do we not see the system is trying to lay us down. It’s black and white right in front of our face. They don’t care about red or blue. The only color standing behind these walls are black. Young or old, we as black men are losing power in a system that wants us to fall. Continue reading

Back to School Thesis

We are students for 4 years, but we’re oppressed our whole lives. This is the sad but true part of the educational/capitalist system that supports this oppression. Before I begin this thesis, I would like to tell the readers what inspired me to write this. I (recently) received a letter from a young woman who is in high school and on her summer vacation is taking the time to learn about activism. She wrote me as part of a project her organization was doing. I enjoy seeing consciousness among young people such as her, and for her I wrote this. Continue reading

‘We must kill this injustice…’

Injustice/ America Controlling the Oppressed through Class Structures

America, how smart you are in your ways of evolution. You began with slavery, then brought Jim Crow, after that began the counterintelligence breakup of Black, Yellow, Brown and Red political groups, then you created the final step in the output of crack cocaine, and its ugly partner in crime, the War on Drugs.

To your steady success in oppression and control over the Black race, I salute your ingenuity.  Continue reading

‘This is a mean business, a money game’

June 29

Power Comrade –

Hope all is well. As for myself I am in good spirits, considering my current situation. As for my health, I run and do yoga daily so my health is fair. This “capitalist machine” profits off of poverty. We have to teach the comrades in here the law, that’s the “capitalist machine’s” biggest weapon. In order for us to stand up and fight we need law material.  – Power

Unafraid of the consequences

July 1, 3 am

Power Comrade —

The people our youth admire are addicted to drugs. It’s important that we pay attention to the youth because they think these stars, actors and rappers are special. The youth think that these entertainers have something they don’t, and this is not true. Every human has it, we have to re-educate the youth, and help them find their purpose. Continue reading

‘I’m a black male–that’s why I’m still here.’

Hello feedback world,

I have been housed here in the Durham County Jail since April 8, 2016. After checking my house on the night in question, the Durham police left with nothing. But they came back a week later cause the word of a white woman. Yes, I’m a black male, that’s why I’m still here. Thanking God for the change in my life. I’ve been out the system for eight long years. Continue reading

‘What’s wrong with that picture?’

I’m doing good, thanks for asking. I’m really glad you all have reached out to me. To tell you a little about myself. My name is Niajel Slad, 24, and I been in the Durham Co. Jail since Aug. 26, 2015. Mind you, when I found out I was a suspect, I turned myself in. Even though the lack of evidence, my bond is 3 million. The media and police said a lot of inaccurate things about me. They treat me like a monster. Continue reading

‘We get to the point it makes us give up on a lot of things…’

Hope that we’re being heard!!!

Sorry I wrote back so late. To answer your question, yes I did hear about some of the protests outside of the jail and I do wanna thank you for being an ear to hear some of these voices that needed to be heard, ya feel me…Things for me are going ok, just a little bit, just ready to hit the yard and get this shit over with. As a 16 year old I’m not really going through that much, just made that they’re holding me for something I didn’t do…A lot of us are being held for something they can’t prove at all. And a guy just shot the police down in the intake area about a month ago and was released on pre-trial release…Me personally don’t think that’s fair at all, and feel something needs to be done ASAP #100. How do you get 18 yrs for one robbery you can’t prove, but get out on pre-trial release or 5 or 6 years for shooting an officer. Shit really doesn’t make any sense at all, but it’s fine, the judge and  the DA really don’t give 2 shits about us. Just another black man off the streets is all that matters to them!!! A lot of us get so cold-hearted and stressed out to the point where it makes us give up on a lot of things and so much anger and stress gets built up and makes us do something we would regret.

They also need to give us our 9:00 walk back, or at least give us 15-minute phone calls because 10 minutes aren’t enough when talking to family about something important…It’s so much in here that needs to be changed as quick as possible and I really hope that something will be done.

I just wanna add something that I’ve learned since I been in here…

Attitude—The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude to me is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than success, than what people think, say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness, or skill…It will make or break a company, a church, a home…the remarkable thing is we make a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past, we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one thing we have and this is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% of what happens to me and 90% how I react to it. And it is with you J We are in charge of our attitude.

Free the guys:

Tazz, Blueeyes, OB, J-rocc, Shy, Sosa, ShoNuff, Myself, RugaBlue, Loca, O-dogg, Messiah, Starrboy, Silk

As y’all know I took my time see yall on the outside world. I’ll be home in 30 months.

God Bless the Strong!!!


The Effect of the Every Man for Himself Mentality




Thoughts on Paper

The Effect of the Every Man for Himself Mentality

Separation that’s what Willie Lynch told slaveholders will control their slaves. Separation is why in the civil rights movement we only go but so far, only accomplishing integration but still not finding the solution for the Black man in America.

Separation is what brought down the conscious political movement, the Black Panther Party. Separation is the reason why today the race of my fellow African descendants are not an economical power in America after being here 300 years as slaves, 150 as freedmen. Willie Lynch said separate them, create self-hate with them, give some a little more good treatment than others (house nigga) and you’ll never have to worry about the general mass (field nigga). This separation was so deeply embedded that even today, those men who are in certain powerful positions in America with the influence to change things, look down upon those who “cause troubles,” they go out their way to show the white man “I deserve this position, and I’ll punish those who fuck up, I got it boss man!” With their fake smiles and upright posture they’re making harder on their own people while trying to get the thumbs up from the white man.

This right here is separation, the every man for himself mentality, and this mindstate is an ever-present affliction in the Afro-American culture. This mindstate is conveyed in rap lyrics, books, communities and conversations. This mindstate is the reason the Spanish (speaking people) came to America years after us and are now a more respected culture in America. This is the reason we are weak! Currently, I am an inmate in the Durham County Detention Facility, and you can see it so clearly here!

First example–in the day room there are 10 tables, majority of the pod is Afro-American, but yet tables are not joined up amongst each other, the only tables that are joined up is those that belong to a common organization, and the (Hispanics). When a new inmate comes in the pod he is first “‘ran down on” (see who you are, where you from, what you bang), then if he has fellow gang members in the pod he MAY get help, if not ,he’s left for dead. On the other hand, when the Spanish (speakers), white, or any other race, they stick together, no matter if out there in that world they’re mortal enemies. When they come in the block, they get food, shoes, hygiene, and anything else needed.

Second example–Durham County Detention Officers, now be aware I’m not sure of other facilities, but here I cannot discredit them, all but 8 of 10 d.o.s act as I’m finna tell you. They will appear to be your friend, attempt to win your favor, try to show you that they are from the struggle, too, that they are a ghetto success story. Well, if you get caught doing the smallest thing wrong they will report you, lock you back 23 and 1, and tell they supervisor “I got ’em boss. I told ya I’ma good one, No trouble on my watch, promote me boss man, I’ll take care of these disgraces!” Do you see the poison that’s been injected into our culture?! How can the village raise the child if the villagers aren’t friendly amongst themselves? This separation has become so common that they even have reality shows showing how our people are so brainwashed that instead of giving a helping hand we attempt to tear each other down on live TV. We must come together despite past issues, and rise up to become the leaders we were designed to be. First, we must get rid of our pride and ego, and realize without each other we only have those whose goal is to separate us further. Second, we must create a plan, a vision, on how we are going to break these mental chains and reform and become kings and queens again. Third, we need to change our culture, re-write what’s right and what’s wrong, put more positivity and economic, mental, physical, educational and spiritual development into the things we engage in for entertainment.

We must learn where this problem comes from, notice it in our day to day manner and kill it at the root. We must educate ourselves and find our personal niche and create businesses, which will create jobs, which will keep the money within the community, which will make the Afro-Americans an economic power. We must find our true religion, discard the one given to us by the same ones who enslaved us. We must look upon the oneness of God, discipline ourselves and set up expectations for those who follow!

Last but not least we must take care of our bodies, discard the mind-altering drugs, take up better diets, and work our bodies out to be able to overcome any physical obstacle! When we do this, and only when we do this will we break these 450 year-old chains of self-hate, self-oppression, self-doubt and separation. We speak upon change (we’ve been doing that since the reconstruction era), but yet we have yet to get rid of the old and bring in the new. Currently we are stuck, we must pull ourselves out of this hole and then lend a hand to the others below, so they may do the same, and so on and so on! If I can get help, get those who agree and believe in me to lend a hand we can be teaching others in the next new generation and we can break these chains within 15 years at the most.

“A man hasn’t truly believed until he wants for his brother what he wants for himself.”

Let’s take two steps and walk to a more better productive future for the Afro-American.

–Al-Muizz Al-Mumit El-Shabazz